Ayodeji Fadugba
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emotional reaction to the evidence


I think when you first come, I came in as a case manager so I was first-line in contact with the documents, preparing the documents. So you, you get to know the facts. They are gruesome and your first reaction, your first reaction is actual-, actually some degree of anger, some degree of fear, especially at the time we were in Kigali. And so you have this fear – “What, what kind of people would do this?”
But I think, because you have so much work to do also, I think you, you snap out of it and then you get on with the business. And I also personally – the way it has affected me professionally is that if I’m having challenges, if I’m having problems whether with colleagues, whether with management, I can be angry for a day or two, but I always I’m able to then think about the fact that it’s not about me, you know.
It’s about people who can’t do anything about what’s happened to them and this is a little contribution that I can, you know, make and so really whoever the, whoever the object is of this, of this – my recent feeling. It’s not about the person, it’s something bigger than that and then, you know, it allows you to put things in perspective.
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Interview Date:
October 23, 2008
Arusha, Tanzania
Lisa P. Nathan
John McKay
Max Andrews
Excerpt From:
Part 4
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Voices from the Rwanda Tribunal team